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It’s been a long road, An arduous one at that, Still, you have never quit, You can never seem to do that. For you know, That all the difficult routes, Lead to some place beautiful, A new destination, Some place good. That’s the thought you hold onto, Every single day, It keeps you breathing. More than that, You always have hope, That’s always alive within your soul, Every single day, It talks to you some more, That hope shall never depart, It’s ingrained within your heart. © 2019 MK AC Nevin-Crooks Love Life Poetry

Image Of You

It’s the quietness that gets to me, I know it shrieks the truth, Every situation is replayed a thousand times within my head, If Ive made a mistake, It chills me to the bone, Gnaws at my brain, Makes me feel a little less happy at home. The darkness frightens me, For it allows me to have crystal clear clarity, Every wrong step, I now know the way, Too late for me, I have lost my way. Through all the broken pieces that make up my life, I see haphazardly, A kaleidoscope of whirlwinds, And still... I always see you. Whenever I am in need, Your memory comes to me, Softens every blow, The image of you from long ago, Soothes my torn and worn soul, Allows me to carry on, At least for a little while more. © 2019 MK AC Nevin-Crooks Love Life Poetry

Fighter

How many times had she fallen? Crashed to the ground, Bruised herself, She pulled herself up, Onwards she went, Never looking back, Well, not for long. She had lost count of how many times she had been confused, Hurt and upset, Lost down the wrong road, Frightened and alone, Still she carried on. So how many times did she have to crawl? She knew she had been burned, Scarred for life, She liked it though, They added to her, Made her a warrior, Fearless in her ways. They thought she had been broken, That she had to surrender, Admit defeat, How wrong they were, She never did, She conquered it all. She had clawed her way out of the darkness, She fought hard, She played tough. Really she was sweet, She was innocent, Not that she liked to show that, Better they think her mean, A fighter to the end, She finds a way to win, Maybe that was her biggest sin. Fighter, 3 Oct 2016 (C) M KA Crooks Poetry

Tones

Days when those bright colours used to light up your soul, Back in the days when you smiled from within. You don’t see those tones much anymore, It feels darker now than it ever was before. Everything seems bleak, Yet still, you hold on, More stoic than anyone who ever came before. © 2019 MK AC Nevin-Crooks Love Life Poetry 18 March 2019

Scotch Tape

Our hearts are no longer kept on our sleeves, Those have all disappeared. Now we have taped our heart back together again, Scotch tape stuck best, What is left? We are a crumbly mess. Every morning we stare in the mirror, Hate what we see, But what should we be doing in reality? Applauding, Celebrating, We have survived, We are still alive, Fuck me! We are warriors of the toughest kind. © 2019 MK AC Nevin-Crooks Love Life Poetry

Haunted

There is something I can see in you, Within your pupils, So huge, So dark, Dreariness resides there, Sadness too, All seem to be screaming inside of you. You have ghosts trapped within, You are haunted still, I see it, Before all else, It shouts and screams, Piercing pain shoots out of your eyes. Those eyes, The windows to the soul, They speak to me, They cry some more. I’m not sure you will ever be able to let that haunted look go, It seems to be entrenched within your soul, You never seem to laugh anymore. © 2017 MK AC Nevin-Crooks Love Life Poetry 18th June 2017

What If…

Time is no longer our friend, And when I find my thoughts drifting, They always return to you, Thoughts of us, Time spent with you. No matter what, No matter where, Like a daily prayer, You are always there, In my minds eye, Always at the forefront. Memories of you, Of us, Not obsessive anymore, Youth destroyed that for me, And in a way I’m glad. Nowadays I feel slightly less torn, Still broken, Always bruised, Carrying on nonchalantly, You know me, I will never show how I truly feel about you. For I have layered on an armour built over the years, Through it all… I became strong, Resilient, A fighter, Always thinking of you, Of things we used to do. I have glued myself back together again, Slithers of my heart are clinging on, I am ready for a new glorious day, Until the dusk makes me forlorn. Whatever happens next, And until my final breath, You will always be my favourite ‘What if…’ © 2019 MK AC Nevin-Crooks Love Life Poetry

Audacity

You have the audacity to call me Godless? That makes me laugh, Usually I would laugh, Today? Today that made me frown, Then I erupted, How dare you! Before I knew it, Emotions exploded, I said and wrote too much, Made me feel happier for a second, Then I knew I had thrown myself upon the mud. That is when I knew, I had demeaned myself, For both you and I now rolled in it. Made me feel sad, Misunderstood, Mostly embarrassed that I had thrown myself down to your low level, Where you for some strange reason thought we all resided. Maybe the problem is, I am me and you are you, I am nothing great, Though I have always known my worth, I have never once sold myself short, For I know how lovely I am within my heart, That has always been enough. © 2017 MK AC Nevin-Crooks Love Life Poetry ...

Father

Everyday a new day, The fearlessness has become alive deep inside, It’s returned once again. Something about me, Makes him awaken, From his deep sleep. He once said ‘You are the most like her’ Me being me... ‘Why? Am I telling you off and you think I am annoying?’ Him: ‘No. She was a lady and I never thought she was annoying’ Any compliment he ever gave me, Well before he was sick, Before the trauma of Mum’s death, I batted each and every compliment away, A seasoned pro. Now I think back with regret and remorse, Why did I have to be that way? I would do anything to go back in time and say ‘Thank you! I love you!’ Once upon a time, He said ‘Mary-Kate is the cross one! Everyone says so!’ I was perplexed, I’ve never seen myself this way. Maybe I was, Is it because when I do not smile I look scary? I can’t remember being cross on purpose, I am quick tempered, I will admit to that, I am who I am, It’s too late ...

Tell Me

Kiss me, Hold me tight, One more time, Tell me I’m your light, Once more, Make everything alright.

Thankful

Thank you for these days, For another blessed day, For the fresh air, The wind in my hair. I no longer care if I look a mess, If you do not like the clothes I wear, Whether you dislike the lilt in my voice, You hate my accent. I care no more, It is no accident, I do what I like, When I like, Nobody controls me, I do as I please, Refrain from judging me, please. I know what matters, What lays in my heart, I do not care if you think me too plump, I am nice. I am delighted for the little arms that surround me, The tiny kisses that wake me up, The cuddles that I feel, The love that I give. I am happy with the sun in the sky, The rain on my face, The water in my bath, The coffee in my cup, The love in my heart. Thank you God, For I have lived, If I die tomorrow I know that I give with an open heart, My love is eternal, That shall never depart, We shall never truly be apart.

Reaper

I don't understand you, All the irrational choices, They plague you, Yet you cling to them as if they are a life raft. All they do, Is drag you down, You are drowning, Almost under, You cling on, Deep breath, No return, Not for you, Not this time. The reaper holds you, In the palm of her hand, You snuggle closer, Oblivious to the ride. Copyright © 2017 MK AC Nevin-CrooksLove Life Poetry29 July 2017

Sparkles

God Help Us All

Fog

Back to the past A song will take me there Its as though I am entrenched in your eyes Your smile Your heart Yet you disappeared a good while ago So long ago I've forgotten what you truly look like I still remember your soul That was all a lie though You sold me a good show Just like that You were gone into the cctober rain The fog you left behind That still remains Oh and of course I never can quite forget the pain Copyright © 2017 MKAC Nevin-CrooksLove Life Poetry21st July 2017

Temperament

I have not loved you for many years I forgot about you after you caused all my tears Yet music has a way of dredging you up It's like a nail to the soul when the lyrics begin To pull at the deadened heart If only we could properly remember to forget Yet you are stored deep within To mess with my mind and my temperament It has taken years to get over it Yet still I silently lament The loss of you caused a hole Made me feel heartbreak You never did show any regret Shame on you for your lack of respect. Copyright © 2017 MKAC Nevin-CrooksLove Life Poetry21st July 2017

Let me Go

Psychological issues Ones I could not help It was The honest truth I never did love you At one point in time I thought I did, But you showed signs of phen I knew we were too similar It would never work I decided to drop the hell out. You were a dreamer, I was a realist, This was the truth, I did care for you, Once upon a time, Just not now, That is no more. I didn't mean to break your heart, But this is life, That's how things go,It's all a learning curve, Learn as you go. You took it too much to heart, Look at it like this...I set you free, So you should thank me, Maybe it's finally time to let things go? Set me free, For give me? Copyright © 2017 MKAC Nevin-CrooksLove Life Poetry21st July 2017

Forgive

Make your heart feel light Forgive them even if it doesn't feel right Forgive them anyway As much for you as for them It's your heart that has grown dark They have flown away You both grew apart. Copyright © 2017 MKAC Nevin-CrooksLove Life Poetry21st July 2017